no revenge

{1.13.2025}

no revenge, because one day you'll realize that i'm not coming back every time, that i can't come back this time.

because i deserved closure. i deserved answers. i didn't deserve to be left with no explanation, cut off and unable to reach you.

and one day, you'll want to come back again, and have the future we wanted.

but no revenge, because the fact that we can't have our notebook moment is enough.

no revenge, because one day, you'll realize that no one cradled the darkest parts of you that you hated, like i did.

and that i've said that for years.

four years ago, i said it. it proved true four years later. because i still loved you from the deepest parts of my soul. you were everything.

and you gave me the best two months of my life. but we never last longer than two months.

no revenge, because one day you'll learn that you won't ever love anyone the same way you loved me.

you'll remember that even when you were in a 2 year relationship, you came back and told me you couldn't stop thinking about me.

and i didn't stop thinking of you either.

no revenge, because i loved you. with every ounce of my body, mind and soul. no revenge, because you'll learn that i would've poured everything into you. no revenge, because you'll realize i would have even sacrificed the approval of my family if it meant spending my life with you.

no revenge, because you were my everything and whenever you left, treated me like nothing.

no revenge, because if you have a conscience at all, that alone will haunt you.